Another Day in Paradise

Sitting here watching Days of Our Lives, I just finished some chinese noodles and trying to chill. I miss blogging very much. I still don’t know the right way to blog. Should I be personal or fake? That is my question. I also think I will delete my other blogs and just write here. I will break down some stuff into chapters…


1. My Hair- My hair is stressing me out so bad and I am sure the stress is making it worse. I keep looking back to all the times I cut my hair on auto pilot. I read somewhere that impulsive hair cutting could also be looked at as self harm. I don’t know. All I know is I have often cut my hair just to get rid of stress and try to have a new look. It is very short now and dry. I have been wearing a lot of wigs. I love wigs. I don’t care that ¬†even if I had the best hair on this planet I would be out playing with wigs. I have inspired a few other ladies to dress up as well.


2.My love life- Well, my sweet one came back to me, but he does not go overboard in the communication. He doesn’t say I love you so much like he used to. I wish he would and all I can do is pray that if he ever loved me he still does. This may once again sound selfish since I am married. My husband was texting his trainer telling her his minute by minute whereabouts claiming that because he runs late at times he needed her to wait for him to get his money’s worth.I was so upset and we fought for 2 days and of course he threw it up at me that I had gone to Morrocco.

3.Friendships- My friend Kat came and we had such fun on her ten day stay with me. I miss her so bad because I never have anyone to hang out with. We went to five movies, had a few doughnuts, did tarot cards and just had a blast.

4. Me- Well, I am just trying to figure out how to get along in life. I wonder about love if my marriage will be okay. Do I really love my special guy? Do I know what love is..Should I stay with my husband and hope he never acts like a bully again or what ? WIll I make any money? Can I ever finish a book without falling asleep? Everytime I try to write I find myself sleepy as a baby being sung to by its mama.


I’m back now what?

I thought about deleting all my posts and just start over. I guess I will write some today. Today has been blah because once again having a little marital probs. Ah to be be 23 and single again….anyway…Mr. Morrocco came back but I don’t see him much. My husband warned me to stay off line. I am lonely and bored. I have started working on my psychic stuff, selling jewelry and my bad hair blog. I just wanted you to know if you are out there. hello….

Visualizing what you want

Sometimes when we try to daydream we pull out of it suddenly. We think that it was a silly idea even though we were smiling when we opened our eyes.

If you visualize what you would like to happen in your life with enough feeling in a way you are a writing a script for what you want in your life.

The first thing is to stop the negative self talk. Don’t be telling yourself that visualizing is silly or a waste of time. You don’t have to tell yourself anything.

Take a few deep breaths and close your eyes. Imagine that what you would is before you and feel the feelings you would feel if this was taking place. It is very important you feel whatever emotions that come to the surface. 

An example : You haven’t seen someone you love in a long time. Imagine you run into him or her. What it feel like. Imagine this scene everyday for five minutes. Ask your angels to help bring you this daydream and see what unfolds!!!

This would work the same on a new house, car or job just visualize all you can as if you are living in that moment.